Thursday, February 28, 2008
please give me the determination! @ 1:14 AM
i am going to do something about it. though it's a bit late. haha!
half an hr of hula hoop everyday! tried the 2nd time today. start to perspire again. not much perspiration ytd. cos too long nvr exercise... bahh.
what's most important is my diet... no more fried food. no more rice. no more ice-cream. no more chocolates! all the way till i slim down to 53kg!!! as for drinks, just very warm water for me!! really need to lose that 2 stupid kilos.
がんばってね！本当に痩せたい！！もう太った自分が嫌いだ！！
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
report @ 12:19 AM
now 5 day week. first day and I'm very tired. look half dead. kept yawning. good thing i have this very interesting chinese lecturer. my friends said my pronunciation is wrong... so quite a few words. hmmm i have to brush up i guess. but i don't know how... always thought my pronunciation is generally quite good. malaysian friend, chinese/korean friend and taiwanese friend pointed out my mistakes. SINGAPOREANS cannot lose out~~~ maybe i should just feel consoled that my english is quite alright too :) at least strike a balance larh.
sent my vaio for repair. BOOOOooOOOooOOoooo. barely 3 months old and she just threw in the white towel. the screen went DARK suddenly last night. told the service centre guy that and he straightaway say send for repair. hope to get my vaio back on friday. lots of work to do man. can't live without a lappy now. all the emails... docs to print for NIE courses... brrrrgh
using dear's laptop now.
recap?
last thurs 21 Feb was our 32nd month anniversary. hungry us went to billy bombers for a nice good meal. cheese fries, caesar salad, banana milkshake and a huge steak burger! yummy...
saturday's mahjong was cancelled at the last minute. so dear and i just played wii and we completed our newly bought *cooking mama* already. fast eh? finish using 2 nights. watched this show called *knocked up*. i would say it's nice. although daryl's snoring was quite distracting. grr. the show was so touching towards the end. the part when she gave birth. i was very very touched. bahhh. tears and all. babies... so cute. haha. under my influence, daryl begins to want a kiddo. we start to talk about our kids in the future already. sweet :)
sunday i slept like a log all the way past 12 noon. went for duck rice. d's cravings. then we joined elaine and george for cycling at ECP. 2 hours of cycling left us totally exhausted. gave me wobbly legs and giddy head. i'm weak!! and fat. jialat jialat.
okie. more updates next time. regarding the previous post, i'm alright already. guess things aren't THAT bad after all.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
intuition. BAD one @ 7:16 PM
i just bought an insurance policy from my auntie. but no, what i'm referring to as irritating is not this. In fact, I'll buy more policies to get myself fully insured. so that my family (mummy) will be protected even when i'm gone. more to come when i'm more financially ready. end of this yr perhaps.
one has to get married one day and that means you have to face more people. his family or relatives. i believe in my intuition. women have this intuition don't they? there is NO liking at all. i remember all incidences. all the things he said. the attitude.
why does it have to be so difficult to communicate and chat like normal? he makes me feel stressed!! no crap. no nonsense. no jokes. i can't be myself. why can't the next conversation begin from where we stopped. I'm referring to the level of ease. it's tiring to strike a conversation. i don't even try anymore.
why that look every time? i don't need someone to constantly look at me and pass judgement or anything like that.
why that attitude? you know, people change over the years when they like the person...RIGHT? my mum does! well, he doesn't. strangerrrrrrrrr...... 2 years plus and still, awkward.....................
don't wanna drink ceremony tea but wanna push pram??? "girl, you saw the wrong head".................. WAIT, WHAT DID I JUST HEAR??? poof.
be it he's totally insensitive, untactful, just born like that or whatever shit, i'm just not going to stay with him...!
i'll probably die if i do. the thought of having a meal with him, the thought of having to live together with him makes me feel uncomfortable and frightened.
bahhhh. this is shit.
this is HOW I FEEL.
Friday, February 15, 2008
our 3rd valentine's day @ 3:04 PM
v-day 2007. 
and this year... 
both have grown fatter. haha.. was waiting at yck mrt for him to pick me up and received a call from someone saying he's at the doorstep, wondering what time i'll be there to receive it. TSK. no surprise lehh. hahaha... called dear and he was annoyed. ask them send between 6-9pm... there would surprise me. but why earlier than requested time... haha.. i found that quite erm funny. he only managed to surprise me on my 21st birthday...the flowers were beautiful. red roses.. very nice wrapping... and a big fat rat.
AHEM. i told him i hate rats and that was exactly what i got and he kept laughing whenever he saw the rat.we cooked our own dinner. our way of spending this v-day.
all he did was have the garlic bread toasted and he overtoasted them. boohoo. hahah but he's very cute yesterday, so he's forgiven. Good thing i bought the cheese sausage, otherwise the dinner could have been quite bad. haha.he washed the pans and pots and plates. hoho. cos i did the cooking like most of the time... mushroom soup, garlic bread, fish fillet, cheese sausage, salad peas...
we went upstairs after our meal. exchanged cards and gave him his present (a top). didn't manage to finish my cross stitch for dear. showed him the 80 percent that was completed. I'll complete it and put it in his room. :) muaahhhh
and then i slept like a log. hahahah.. K.O-ed for 3 hrs. (biological clock totally screwed up this week. sleeping at 4 plus 5 then wake up at 8) woke up at 12 plus. then we cut the small & ex breadtalk cake......... 
it was very nice to my surprise. rich chocolate... could tell dear enjoyed it. because he kept eating when i was taking pictures!! nehhh. 
i like my flowers... mine looks better than my sis'. hahah. but she got a LV bag from bro-in-law.. i have a rat. big fat rat. haha but i likeeee.... love my pudding too...
notice how i dress. normal what. but i always look lok kok in school. must have been super ugly la. that my friends keep telling me i look nice after i doll up... attire and make-up. and huanyang saw me and said my eye make-up is heavy again. haha! my nice classmate who's already a mum said next time i'll look beautiful when i wear my wedding gown... cos i look nice after dolling up. yup. i wanna be a pretty bride :) then in NTUC some auntie asked me to get smth on the highest rack for her because i'm very tall. wahhh. confirm good mood lor. tall and ahem praises for the day. (which also means i must be looking like shit on normal days) talked to my nice classmate today about birth-giving, pregnancy, wedding... she said from the way i talk, i'm all ready to have a baby and get married. hahaha... those are really my wishes in life.... i want my sons... hor darlie?
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
feelin' good! @ 3:46 PM
okay! rest!! for a while. Chinese test coming up next thursday.
things to look forward to this week... fourskin peeps are having dinner today. wanna join but i have something else to do. for tomorrow's event. :)
tomorrow (valentine's day): celebrating at dear's house this year. i think same thing over the past 2 years. we only went out for dinner on 15th feb. Don't wanna rush with the crowd. This year we'll have homecooked meal and a small cake. :) really sick of eating so much from the whole CNY season. then gift exchange... i hope i'll have one. hahah. :)
Friday: steamboat dinner at kawan's place with the whole gang i hope. i wanna see josh's girlfriend!!
Saturday: playing mahjong with Elaine babe, jules, george and dear. anyhow pick 4 la. i'm having/experiencing mahjong craze this chinese new year! playing at higher bets than usual. but still small. hurhur.
violet is in an exceptionally good mood today.........
Monday, February 11, 2008
happy new year every BARDY~!! @ 2:41 AM
anyway, happy new year!!! today's the 5th day of new year. still not too late. hee.
reunion dinner at grandma's
grandma's again on the 1st day. and dinner was at ryan's place. Daryl's popo asked me to go for dinner. It was my first time celebrating CNY 1st day at a place besides grandma's.
2nd day.... i was stuck at home!! doing assignments!! HOW NICE... and all lecturers wished us "happy new year...enjoy your new year" the week before. and left us to be pinned down by assignments.
went to daryl's ah ma's house in the afternoon and my 2nd aunt's house after that. steamboat..... black jack and my mahjong!!! hoho...
4th day... went to visit 4th aunt. she had a bad fall and is now resting at home. 4th aunt's family didn't join us for new year this year. One main reason why new year seem so quiet this year... she should be recovering soon anyway :) then i did some work too... assignments... boohoo.
that's why i'm still awake now. but tasks are accomplished. so i'm going to bed now!! classes start PROPER on 25th feb.. sobb. early class EVERYDAY when that happens....
gotta pia my ICT essay. get over and done with it on wednesday. I wanna spend my valentine's day at ease~!!! and with lotsa love in the air! love you baby!! muahhh
(will add the pics some other time. when I can open my eyes perhaps.)
Friday, February 01, 2008
5 gatherings in a week?!? @ 4:09 PM
had a nice gathering with primary school friends on wednesday night at Sakura Buffet restaurant in clementi woods. ate too full. bahh. my friends actually posted many primary 6 photographs on facebook! haha some looked really funny... good ol' memories~~ ok here's one of them! 
gonna meet up with secondary school friends tonight at clementi. interesting way of having gathering. we're eating tze cha. haha.
more gatherings coming up this week. lennart's birthday celebration on saturday... the usual gang is gonna meet up for dinner and partying. same bunch will go skating and cycling on sunday! Jasper asked for gathering on sat for lunch too..
HK nude photographs issue. i saw the pictures. friend forwarded the link. left me almost speechless. 100% sure that was cecilia cheung. it's gillian that shocked me. photos look really real... so what if she goes to the doctor and proves that she's a virgin? i guess my friend said the right thing. 此地无银三百两。。。